Still Down
Alas, depression continues to fester. Mostly a reaction to stress and isolation, I imagine--gotta move soon, wife's away up north doing her theater gig--but there it is. Which means that I'm still bereft of anything of substantial interest to say, since all I can really think about is how everything feels empty and pointless. (Well, not everything--I'm still having my parents Tivo Deadwood every week, and I'm keeping up with my 'self-improvement' reading--right now I'm hacking my way through Adorno's Negative Dialectics, and don't you wish you were me? Or is it 'I'? Let's see, 'to be' takes the nominative as its accusative...Hell with it.) Mostly I'm just moody and withdrawn and inclined to react to the world with retreat and/or a shrug that says 'whatever, fine with me, can't care right now.' Not an appealing, witty frame of mind. Still, history has shown that time passes and so does the mood, and that thought alone is some comfort. Just have to dig in and wait/work it through...Stay tuned.
posted by Yr. Hmbl. & Obdt. | 2:57 PM
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Ahh but with a move coming soon shouldn't effort be made to get prepared for that eventuality (i.e. packing of boxes, storage of wife's belongings while she's away, etc.)? Perhaps new surroundings will provide you the opportunity to get a fresh perspective on life. It really is too short to be down for so long.
Thanks...I think--that last sentence has me a bit confused; not sure what "it" is--one is tempted to make the obvious jokes about the reason I'm down is because "it really is too short" and suchlike phallic idiocies. But let's not. Could you rephrase "it" a wee bit?
Well the obvious (or is it) inference would be "our pathetic little existance that don't amount to a hill of beans in the grand scheme of the universe" no? But I suppose "it" could just mean "life". Yeah maybe that's it- no pun intended.
But...but...if it's so pathetic and unimportant, why should I feel anything other than bleak about it...? Now you've got me all confused.
Nah, seriously, I take your point. Brevity of existence necessitates an active role in achieving happiness. True. "Mental illness notwithstanding", I feel compelled to add--but there, too, one can fight as much as one can...
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